boredom
dot dot dot I feel lyke so SIAN now....SIAN until can SIAN diao. what to do? played dota until so sian, keep losing todae not on form wad to do!? some1 save mi...., haish. if i lose one more game i nid to go see doctor then when sch reopen i everydae dun go sch n under reasons i put " nid to refine dota skills". haish, going mad le even without mask of madness...what to do? onli can write crap lor.
haish, actualli wanted to call some pple go some random place to do some random thingys. called xuan yang,dexter n glenn, den when almost goin le tt time den glenn suddenly sae he nort goin, den dexter also not going . left mi and xuan yang....2 poor lonely souls being poisoned by a disease known as boredom. well, maybe it's restless not boredom...gort alot things to do...but no mood..realli wanna go out.
den wr go suntec dis morning, i shld haf gone wif him...now his somewhere in singapore...location not identified..., sian..cannot contact him also. Haish, maybe if he goin den dexter will go out wif us also. and go where again? also dunno, i juz told them "to some random placey"...lol..hahahaha...
the holiday i looked forward to..was soo boring? guess it's because on one online...and no one contact-able thru phone. no one to talk to, an a drastic decline in dota skill totally killed my passion. playing so carelessly wad shld i do? iz there any medicine i can take?
the effect of depression still eats my soul alive, it's painful..but also...hmm..soothing at the same time..why? why do i realli realli feell ike sinking into depression?..haish, is depression realli dat bad? is' not that painful as it seems..? so what is depression? is it a state where you become immune to pain? well, maybe numb to it?? or being overwhelmed by it? what am i feeling now? random thoughts..that hurt mi alot?....or confusion..? or the void in my thoughts juz getting bigger n bigger as each dae passes..? wtf am i saeing...i din realli think. one part of my brain tells mi tt i'm aiming for the longest post ever to satisfy my boredom....another part of it tells mi i'm inputting wad i realli feel. anyway does a depressed person noes tt his under depression? or is he obvlivious of it? dunno? depression.....maybe i shld go check dictionary to wad it means....
i can't aim for the longest post ever.....it's prove that i'm bored..there's nothing to talk about..the world's instalemate siutation from mi view pnt ight now...it's grey, there's nothing to it nomatter how mani times i look. it's just that boring. time feels like it isn't moving? why? i feel like moving the clock......., but what good does it do?? i wan to c qp...but i can't. there's no way..why? i feel so fu*ked up..why?....i feel so painful inside...KURUSHII!!!
haish, actualli wanted to call some pple go some random place to do some random thingys. called xuan yang,dexter n glenn, den when almost goin le tt time den glenn suddenly sae he nort goin, den dexter also not going . left mi and xuan yang....2 poor lonely souls being poisoned by a disease known as boredom. well, maybe it's restless not boredom...gort alot things to do...but no mood..realli wanna go out.
den wr go suntec dis morning, i shld haf gone wif him...now his somewhere in singapore...location not identified..., sian..cannot contact him also. Haish, maybe if he goin den dexter will go out wif us also. and go where again? also dunno, i juz told them "to some random placey"...lol..hahahaha...
the holiday i looked forward to..was soo boring? guess it's because on one online...and no one contact-able thru phone. no one to talk to, an a drastic decline in dota skill totally killed my passion. playing so carelessly wad shld i do? iz there any medicine i can take?
the effect of depression still eats my soul alive, it's painful..but also...hmm..soothing at the same time..why? why do i realli realli feell ike sinking into depression?..haish, is depression realli dat bad? is' not that painful as it seems..? so what is depression? is it a state where you become immune to pain? well, maybe numb to it?? or being overwhelmed by it? what am i feeling now? random thoughts..that hurt mi alot?....or confusion..? or the void in my thoughts juz getting bigger n bigger as each dae passes..? wtf am i saeing...i din realli think. one part of my brain tells mi tt i'm aiming for the longest post ever to satisfy my boredom....another part of it tells mi i'm inputting wad i realli feel. anyway does a depressed person noes tt his under depression? or is he obvlivious of it? dunno? depression.....maybe i shld go check dictionary to wad it means....
i can't aim for the longest post ever.....it's prove that i'm bored..there's nothing to talk about..the world's instalemate siutation from mi view pnt ight now...it's grey, there's nothing to it nomatter how mani times i look. it's just that boring. time feels like it isn't moving? why? i feel like moving the clock......., but what good does it do?? i wan to c qp...but i can't. there's no way..why? i feel so fu*ked up..why?....i feel so painful inside...KURUSHII!!!
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