to own and to be owned....

nothing to do so update larz. just had a fierce argument with dexter. not really fierce but quite "hiong" considering that i usually dun argue wif pple like dis. we aruging on who better in badminton. wp says i obviously better than dexter..i know i abit zhuai then todae when playing mx was at my side then i told mx to go over to dex's side if not imbalanced. >_<, haha, that means i saying i can 1v2 them..hehe, then mx went over, i managed well lah. dunno how to say lah but i think playing wif dex very boring....at my position it might be hard to say, but i have come to the truth that i have becomed abit "zhuai" over time..., i know i once used to be boring to play wif..and now i say pple boring to play against.... from not knowing how to even hit the shuttle i improved to the level that i can hit a [proper] "higuma otoshi", i realli consider that an achievement, though i still lose to many in sch but i think i can play of a certain standard in sch...of course..kanna thrashed by zhi xuan, guo xiang, wp..etc...etc...-.-, then dex still like abit not convinced that i better than him, he SOOOO childish like throwing tandrums like tt, so insensitive...even wz agrees that his childish. sad to say but i even give him face to dedicate a entry to him. then he give excuses like shuttle lousy......then like i play more often than him..handphone in pocket..i was stunned in awe...thinking "WTF". So err..shuttle? i dun get it at all, both of us are using the same shuttle? it's fair isn't it. he says it's not fair..err..i ask him why then he said cause i play more often and more used to playing in sch? did i play alot in sch? i think once or twice i stayed back and played during cca but now...NO? i just started like wif him...since the holidays when wp trained me i have been better than dex liao..and i can't believe his not convinced. giving mi answers like " wadever lor", SOOO childish he doesn't wan to admit that he is lousier than mi..XD haizz, dunno y i feel the urge to pinch that phrase out of his soul..-....-, i feel so agitated, has he offended me? no..but all of a sudden a feel a burst of anger..perhaps from a random twilight zone..>_<, haizz, it feels so strange.

i hate it when pple think that they r better than mi when some pple tell that that they r obviously lousier. for example, (not directing at dex), ming xian. I assume (it's bad to do so but i think thru body lanquage and the art of psychic powers), i can roughly guess that he THINKS his not any way lousier than dex,me and wr, or possibly even glenn's standard. He would pass the racket willingly to guo xiang, zhi xuan or err..any other random badminton player with the tag "pro" attacthed to them? izzit just pro, or sometimes doesn't it seem that he lends his rackets to only players who r better than him..., and in fact, isn't he crawling desperately at the bottom ofthe ladder..yet holding on to his racket so stubbornly!??!. It's pretty obvious that he thinks little of people especially me,wr, dex and possibly even tj or glenn. I wonder why he can't see his own standard in the mirror..-.-

being very zhuai is nt good for health, i am VERY aware of tt. now having zhuai aura.